I am scared.

December 3, 2015

I am scared I am scared I am scared I am scared I am so damned scared.

I don’t know why I just – I am having like a fear panic attack. I am supposed to be going out with a friend tonight and my hands are shaking and I am nauseated. I assume it’s because I will be seeing the doctor tomorrow and finding out my treatment schedule, but I don’t know why that should scare me any more than what I already know. Still.

I am so scared.

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myprettylittlestethoscope

December 3, 2015 at 1:20 am

It’s okay to be scared, in fact, it’s perfectly normal. I’m here if you need to talk.

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1. katejig
  
  December 3, 2015 at 5:27 am
  
  Thank you so much. I am so touched by all the people who have reached out to me.
  
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Leah Houghtaling

December 3, 2015 at 3:27 am

It’s ok to be scared. This is scary stuff. But, it will get easier, I swear. Every step deeper is a little harder, but at some point there are no more steps. At some point it will feel ok. In the meantime, lots of hugs and love and processing with people your trust and love. It will get better. You will feel better.

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1. katejig
  
  December 3, 2015 at 5:27 am
  
  Thank you so much. I’m so sorry your chemo is kicking your ass. I’m sending strength and positive vibes your way. We’ll make it through this and one day it will all be a distant memory. xo
  
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giggin1

December 3, 2015 at 5:25 am

Don’t fight the panic attacs, just ride the waves. You already know this will not be an easy road to walk, but we will get to the end, or rather to the beginning of our new lives. Stay strong ❤️

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1. katejig
  
  December 3, 2015 at 5:26 am
  
  Thank you, honey. How are you doing? Did I see you might have pneumonia?!? Hang in there, my tough buddy!
  
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